The Past makes the decisions.
Can't think for myself,
mind racing, thoughts confused.
Ten steps back
none forward,
reverse circles.
Trying to escape The Past
repeating it doesn't make sense.
Doing what He did
hurts, terrifies, confuses...
The Past in control
determining everything.
Why can't I decide?
Would I choose different?
It is a weapon,
not ever about love.
It is the sum of everything,
of all I am,
nothing more, never.
Past =
Present and Future.