~ ALWAYS WANTED ~

Although bad things do happen
I'm left to cope and deal
All by myself, alone again
Supressing how I feel.
Leaving love and trust behind
For anger, woe and fear,
I travel down the future path
To where, I'm not quite clear.
I yearn to break free from the sadness
Away from my troubles and pain,
But hurt keeps coming my way
And I'm left feeling nothing but drained.
Empty and scared, I have to decide
Which path I choose to take,
The one where I learn to smile again
Or the one in which smiles are fake.
Now someone has shown me deep inside
There is a tiny little light,
That can keep me alive and happy
That my life is worth a fight.
Although battered and bruised and bleeding
I start my journey through the maze
Of life and death, love and hate
Sometimes I travel in a daze.
But I know what I want now
I have to be strong,
To get what I've always wanted
To be the real me all along.