Pain in my chest ...
Is it my heart breaking?
Pride wanting to be swallowed?
Relief for freedom?

PAIN PAIN PAIN
It hurts,
but so does everything,
could be anything.
WHAT WHAT WHAT

Heart is breaking 'cause I'm not wanted.
Pride wants to be swallowed, want to ask to come back.
Relief for freedom, loneliness is nothing but nothing is everything.

Head spinning,
stomach spinning,
life spinning.
Why? WHY?

Couldn't do it,
not yet,
not prepared.
Will I ever be prepared?
Will tonight be the night?

Will I throw those stupid fucking pills down my throat,
and never wake up and have to face myself?
Sounds like bliss ...

Maybe tonight will be the night.