(Part 1 - The Prisoner Inside my Head)

I can feel her within me .. a darkness so familiar to mine .. yet different from what I know ~ Inside my head she reigns supreme .. tearing my mind in half .. controlling what is left ~ Inside my body .. can feel her reaching up .. her pointy fingers .. running down my rib cage .. clawing at my throat .. scratching at my insides ~ Her tiny screams .. escaping from my mouth .. muffle my own ~ She cries so hard .. can feel her shudder inside me .. her tears choking me .. I gasp for air ~ Want to turn myself inside out .. to be rid of her .. she is scared .. and so am I ~ She has me questioning everything .. the thoughts .. the needs .. my very own existence ~

My light inside blinds her .. she closes her eyes .. can feel her inhale .. her chest inside mine ~ Laughs an evil laugh .. the candle flickers .. and she blows out the flame ~ Fills my insides with emptiness .. fills my head with nothing ~ Tears out all that there was .. replaces it with her own breed of darkness ~ A life without sense or reason .. a body for the soul she is ~

Her hand wraps tight around my heart .. squeezing out the last of life .. memories are lost forever ~ She rips out the empty black core .. pushes it up through my throat .. out of my mouth .. I scream ~ She curls up in the space .. replacing the heart-beat .. with the rhythm of her melody ~ Her shriveled existence .. continues in me .. and is mine ~ The pain she feels .. her desires .. the things she yearns for .. things she needs .. have all become mine now ~ We have become one .. forever ~

She waves around my blackened heart .. wants everyone to see .. the dirt and shit .. the layers of hate .. the black ~ Wants to expose me .. for the worthless pathetic creature I am ~ She hates me ~ She can't get out .. she will scratch at my insides .. little by little .. until she has made a hole .. can crawl out ~ Wants to be the one I hate .. as much as she hates me ~

She invades my head .. my body .. my thoughts .. desires .. everything is hers now ~ She is calm .. but restless .. and she stirs inside me ~ Can feel her moving .. slowly pulling apart the things inside .. tearing away at all that was me ~ Hear her humming .. tunes of sadness and loneliness .. fright and evil .. I write the lyrics .. and sing out loud ~ Feel so attached .. yet distant .. from the strange creature .. who controls it all ~ She is murderous .. evil .. alone .. angry .. scared ~ All that I was .. and will always be ~ She hums long .. melodies in time .. with my own breaths ~

Can feel her evil .. running through my veins ~ The blood is still the same .. sweet and sticky .. she needs it .. wants it .. makes it my desire ~ I watch my reflection .. her face in the mirror .. scratching at myself .. picking off the dirty scabs .. searching for something new ~ Nothing but pure evil ~ She wants me to hurt .. hates me ~ Force-feeds me pain .. and my own evil ~

She makes my eyes hurt .. each image a painting of pain .. makes me curse the things I loved .. because she is scared ~ She won't let me be .. won't let me see .. let me need .. won't let me have anything .. but her ~ Her head falls back .. she laughs .. and my eyes become black ~ I laugh her evil laugh .. dance her evil dance .. become the things I hate .. the things she loves ~

I don't want to be her .. don't want to need her .. but the emptiness she gives me .. the darkness she envelops me in .. is safe .. somehow ~ I feel warm .. alive .. even though I am dead ~ She fools me .. makes me see stars .. then drags my insides down .. and spits on my blackened heart ~

She brings the rain .. drowns me with my tears .. has taken everything ~ But still I need her .. controlling .. who to be .. can't think .. she does everything for me ~ And I am safe .. I am not alone ~

I despise the things she is .. the things she does .. things she makes me do ~ But I am with her forever .. we will never escape each other .. this tormented life has become .. for two what was once for me ~ She pulls my eyes shut .. forces me to look inside .. face to face with the evil ~ I see her .. see her pointy fingers .. her blackened heart .. I am just as dirty as she .. just as scared .. alone .. evil .. just as black ~ Both caught in this hell that is I ~

The pain .. the hate .. the hurt .. the lies .. and the truth .. she is all of that .. she is all I am ~ Don't want to be alone .. I cherish her .. but hate her ~ Can't be anything without the prisoner inside my head ~

(Part 2 - What's The Hurry???)

Small white hands gripping my ankles .. pointy fingers digging in .. long hair flowing out behind her .. her body bathed in a sea of darkness .. evil hidden behind the pale-faced mask ~ Dragging me through the present .. no time to stop .. no time to think .. to feel .. to be .. I watch it all pass by .. into the future ~ A blur of time .. things gone by so quickly .. can't focus fast enough .. to see and recognize .. to even make them mine .. before they become the past ~

Still she keeps going .. pulling me along .. won't let go .. no matter how loud my cries ~ Dragging me behind her .. further forward she runs .. faster and faster ~ Sometimes she turns to look at me .. her sweet smile and innocent face .. covering the hollow cheeks .. vacant eyes .. and crooked teeth .. all coated in the black evil ~I know where she's taking me ~

She never stops .. always running .. quicker than yesterday .. slower than tomorrow .. soon there will be no tomorrow ~ I don't want to follow .. want her to let go .. want to slow down ~ I struggle .. dig my elbows into the ground .. fingers bloody and torn from grabbing everything .. try to kick away her grip .. anything to stop her ~ She will not ~

Her evil laugh as I beg her .. echoes in my head .. "Almost there" she giggles, "Not long now" .. chuckling all the time ~ Laughing her evil laugh .. tightening her grip .. and picking up speed ~

My head spins .. overwhelming .. sickening ~ I know we're almost there .. I can feel Him .. he's just around the corner ~

(Part 3 - The End . . .)

Finally she stops .. we're too close now .. to ever run back ~ She lets go of my feet .. drops my legs to the ground .. contentedly sits beside me .. evil grin stretching across her face ~ I can hear Him .. smell Him .. taste Him .. feel his warmth ~ And soon it will all be mine .. cannot linger out of sight forever ~ Wait for Him to jump out .. to cram himself into my mouth .. choking me .. suffocating .. taking away my last breath ~

She laughs as she watches .. my hesitation ~ I want to run .. but life has been lived .. there's no way back ~

I stand on the pavement of life .. nothing to my right .. a blank wall towering above me to the left .. I turn and stare back .. there is only the past .. unreachable .. wouldn't go back if I could .. and up ahead .. I see the corner ~ Just feet away I stand .. I know He's behind it .. waiting for me .. he knows what I really want ~ Still He scares me .. I can do nothing .. but step towards it ~

He's waiting for me .. his arms reaching out .. beckoning me .. from around the corner ~ Can't see his face .. don't want to ~ She giggles .. wants me to see ~ She wants me to choose .. has brought me to Him ~ She pushes me on .. hopes I'll run back to her .. I fall to the ground ~ So scared ~

There is no choice now .. crawl forwards .. drag myself towards him .. tears stain my cheeks .. have no voice to cry out loud ~ She hums her tunes in the background ~ Turn the corner ~

Stare up at his welcoming face ~ Smile for the first time in forever ~ Hold out my hands ~ And greet Death with open arms ~