sometime AUGUST, 1996
Have been hanging out with Trent a fair bit, we were going for drives and talking and getting on with each other, then he ended up getting together with Chad's sister. One weekend when Cherie and I were going over to Chad's house for the usual Saturday night drinking and watching TV, and I told her that I was going to have sex with Trent. And y'know what - we did that night. I got real drunk and Trent offered to drive me home. Chad shot us a nasty look before we left, but it was Trent's choice to take me home, and I don't doubt that what happened was what Trent wanted and expected to happen. I didn't have to twist his arm, he was more than willing to do it.
Well, whole bunches of fucked up crap happened after that though. When Trent and I were together Paul kept calling me on my mobile. He was obviously driving past my house and seen Trent's car there 'cause he kept asking if Trent was there with me. After Trent left Paul came over and he stood in my doorway calling me a whore over and over. Every time he did I slapped him. He kept saying it. In the end I smashed the side mirror on his car (well, his parents car). I cut my hand open on the glass when I did it and I smeared it all over the jacket Paul was wearing.
I don't know where he gets off acting like that towards me. We're not together even though we've been sleeping together ever since we broke up the last time (which was over a year ago), and he *wanted* me and Trent to get together. He was telling both of us to go for it. So when I do he calls me a whore and basically abuses me in my own home?? I don't get it at all.
The day after Trent and I had sex we were all (Trent, his girlfriend, Cherie, Paul and me along with a few other people) supposed to go to Adelaide to watch Chad race his motorbike. And we did all end up going, but it was quite strange. Paul picked me and Trent up in the morning and drove the three of us to Adelaide. I don't think either of us said more than a few words to each other the whole drive (over 2 hours). When we got there Cherie and I went for a walk and I told her everything that happened. She couldn't believe that Trent and I actually had sex. We went back to the van and sat in there, and Trent's girlfriend was shooting me daggers 'cause I think Chad had told her Trent left with me, but she didn't know what had happened and I guess was just suspicious. Trent wouldn't say a word to me all day, which I don't think did anything to make his sister feel any more confident that nothing happened.
In the end, no-one said anything to anyone about Trent and I - I didn't tell anyone except Cherie, Paul already knew but didn't say anything to anyone, and Trent sure as hell didn't tell anyone. Overall, just a bunch of crap really. I couldn't care less ... it's not like I want to be with Trent. We haven't talked since that night. And Paul hasn't mentioned it either.
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: September, 1996 - @ the Adelaide Show
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SEPTEMBER 29th, 1996
* Went to Silverchair concert at Thebarton Theatre with Paul.
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OCTOBER 3rd, 1996
* Went to Garbage concert at the Entertainment Center with Paul.
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Last night (Jan. 27, `96)
